Where did it go ? That can mean a lot of things. Is the ‘it’ my journey for the week ? My journey became one of being lost… Was I lost ? Not this time, I actually had some breakthroughs when writing my Press Release. It was very freeing to let the expressions and creativity flow. I loved it !
What was lost was my blog post. I am now trying to conjure up something that might resemble what I wrote for Week 5. It must be floating around out there in cyberspace somewhere . As I’ve said before I’m not very well-versed in technology, to say the least. It’s pretty bad when you don’t even know that your post was lost . I thought all was well until for some reason I decided to go back and check on it and Voila ! It was gone ! I usually take a screenshot of my work so I at least have a copy, but no, not this time…. Lesson learned. So here I am shrugging my shoulders and trying to figure it all out.
That week has past and now new information has filled the space in my brain that held Week 5 … It’s that Law of Substitution !
It’s just not happening, I’m sure I learned valuable things and thank goodness Subby is here to hold onto it for me. Thank you Subby, I am grateful you are a part of me.
I’m not sure if I really should be blogging right now. I am very frustrated over my ‘homework assignment’. Every week in this course we are to write out a description of our purpose and how we plan our future to look and feel like in less than 400 words. Then it is critiqued and given back to us to make changes and submit again. I don’t know how others feel when they get theirs back, but usually I feel insulted, dejected and misunderstood. I know there are certain ways we are to express our intentions and it’s all part of learning, but if I omit one part or add in what they want I lose the meaning of what I’m saying. It doesn’t feel like mine anymore. I’m feeling a bit like I’ll never be able to please my Guides,
or if I should even be here.
It’s been a VERY LONG time since I’ve been in school or even had someone tell me what I need to do. I want to be compliant but the stubborn part of me is talking back BIG TIME. I’m not just slapping some words down, I’ve really thought about this carefully. For a woman, ecspecially of my age, it can be very difficult to express wants and needs. I’m old enough to have grown up when we were not to speak but be spoken to. ” Just look pretty my dear !” The ideal was to marry Prince Charming and live happily ever after … right, like that was ever going to happen ! The woman took care of the kids and her Man. We were not expected to ‘do anything’ with our lives, just Be. So learning to actually ‘want’ or think of something for ourselves was considered selfish. It’s not going to be easy. It’s a very hard lesson to UN-learn.
So, Yes, Subby we’ve got a WHOLE BUNCH of reprogramming ahead of us.
And that’s why I’m here.
Well, I’ve enjoyed this week. Even though I have been disorganized, I think I’m starting to get the hang of ‘classes’ and ‘homework’. And it feels pretty good.
Participating in the Master Key Experience is truly an ‘experience’. One of the things that excites me the most is being in a group of like minded people and realizing that there are others that believe our own thoughts control our lives. In the past I have been very careful where and when I talk about this subject. I live in a town of many stifled people, not many free thinkers. They just do what they are told, never questioning. A lot of empty, blank faces. If I shared some of my thoughts, I’m sure I would be looked upon as looney and I might as well be wearing tin foil on my head. This is a big reason I have mostly kept to myself for so many years. But now I’m starting to experience a freedom I haven’t felt in a long time.
I Belong ❤️ What a wonderful feeling ❤️
It has been an experience with Patience this week, to say the least . I thought things were going pretty smoothly and I was pretty proud of myself for getting as far as I have. Then the Tech Monstet reared its ugly head. I couldn’t log into my accounts, panic started to set in. Any suggestions offered weren’t working. Oh boy did this bring back feelings of inadequacy ! Just Who do you think you are ? You really thought you could do this ? HA ! You don’t know beans about technology .. you’re a lowly Seamstress .. just mindlessly stitching… blah,blah, blah.
First of all I AM pretty proud of the work I’ve created, there are garments in books, magazines, on Stage and in movies that display my skills. But alas, that was from a long time ago, it’s a different time now, probably means little to most. I have to figure out another way to shine and of course I’m SCARED !!
The book we are reading says “Today I start a new life”. So I am. I am starting my new life by participating in the Master Keys Alliance which I feel very privileged to be able be a part of. It’s going to be a real game changer for me. I’m going to learn how to survive and THRIVE in this technical world. It’s not going to be easy … my computer crashed, but I have an iPhone and my mini iPad, that will just have to do for now. Maybe it’s better because it’s more portable ! I just threw that in there because it sounds like an advantage, right ? I know I will struggle but I will learn a lot about myself. And it’s going help me give life to my Dreams.
Back to my original thoughts….. I am learning Patience. I just kept trying and after 2 days of almost unbearable angst here I am. I opened a new account, hence the title of Week 2 without a Week 1. I have no idea what happened to my other one… out there in cyberspace somewhere I guess. The other places where my password wouldn’t work ? I just ‘changed’ passwords with the same old password and it WORKED. I’m in, I’m moving forward and not looking back !